Hurting Dilema

Have you been put in a situation were someone elses happiness interferes with yours and you try to put it aside but it doesn't work?

It hurts because you don't want them to be unhappy...but you don't want to pretend like you are happy because that's not the thing to do right? You let them know it hurts them more, and it just doesn't work. It's like life changing situation like a baby! And it's something that I don't want because I'm young Im only 18 years old I haven't even gone to college or even graduated yet! I don't know what to do. Because I love her so much but I can't stand for something that I am not ready for. I do want her to think that I am selfish but I would be wasting life, I don't want our relationship to go away because we have been together for a long time and I don't know what to do.... she has been in my life know things that other people wished they knew about me. I mean I don't know what to do, I can't stand this feeling to talk to someone that wants something so bad and you can't supply the support for it because your not as ready they are because they are more far ahead. I don't wan't to have a baby yet. I want one kinda but not yet. I want to bite life first then I wouldn't mind doing the extra things that brings joy right? I'm not really fond of kids, but later down the road I would be, to have a child and to experince all of lifes pleasures and joy.