Have you been soooo lonely and bored!?

All I did was sleep and walk around the house like a ghost that couldn't go home. I was so lonely all I did was think of seeing my girlfriend again and then I listen to music until I went to sleep. I called in at work because I didn't want to go. Then I started thinking that was a bad idea because I don't have people to interact with. I didn't have no one to talk to or nothing. I tried calling my girlfriend but she wouldn't pick up the phone because I forgot at this desperate moment that she does have a job. So again I walk around look outside the window kinda groan to myself....wishing I could do something.

Just annoying

I have an issue with some females, I mean I have alot that like me and I don't mind, but it starts to get on my nerves that they see your not interested and they still pursue you.I mean.. I can't help but like the attention at first because they are making it obvious that they like you and they are not discrete at all!!! But it's not coo if someone told you hey I have a girlfriend, and you push yourself on them sexually. I don't like that I mean, it happens to me all the time. I can understand if I was looking for it then yeah ok. But I have a boss that liked me straight off when I was hired. She's probably in her mid 30's and she constantly flirts with me and always checking me out when I walk off. Don't get me wrong she's attractive for her age but I don't want any part of that you know. NONE! But she waits until I was alone and I was in the restroom about to call my girlfriend because I was getting ready to clock out. She came in made small talk, I seen where it was going so I tried to leave but she grabbed me and kissed me. I was like in shock and I panicked! I mean I didn't know what to say or do I just stood there. I didn't want to tell my girlfriend at first because I was scared that she wouldn't believe me I mean I told her ahead of time that I have a feeling that my boss likes me, but I was being stupid and ignored it because I thought hey I'm 18 she's 30 something with 3 kids and a girlfriend that probably swallows my age twice, but yeah that just showed how wrong I was. But my girl took it well when I told her, surprising she was pissed at Tammy that's my boss name by the way, because the woman should have known better from the start. Have anyone had this experince besides me?

puppy!!!

IT"S PEANUTBUTTER JELLY TIME!!!!

Hurting Dilema

Have you been put in a situation were someone elses happiness interferes with yours and you try to put it aside but it doesn't work?

It hurts because you don't want them to be unhappy...but you don't want to pretend like you are happy because that's not the thing to do right? You let them know it hurts them more, and it just doesn't work. It's like life changing situation like a baby! And it's something that I don't want because I'm young Im only 18 years old I haven't even gone to college or even graduated yet! I don't know what to do. Because I love her so much but I can't stand for something that I am not ready for. I do want her to think that I am selfish but I would be wasting life, I don't want our relationship to go away because we have been together for a long time and I don't know what to do.... she has been in my life know things that other people wished they knew about me. I mean I don't know what to do, I can't stand this feeling to talk to someone that wants something so bad and you can't supply the support for it because your not as ready they are because they are more far ahead. I don't wan't to have a baby yet. I want one kinda but not yet. I want to bite life first then I wouldn't mind doing the extra things that brings joy right? I'm not really fond of kids, but later down the road I would be, to have a child and to experince all of lifes pleasures and joy.

Have I made a mistake?

I thought alot about this woman who has come into my life and changed everything about me and I can't seem to shake the fact that I do care about her. I don't think everyone understands where I come from when I tell them about her. People that socialize with me don't think she's the one and think I should move on. But she's the only one that actually sat down talked me and studied me and got to know me and I know that I can be an ass about things. I have an issue with taking things to heart I try to straighten that out because it's not good to do that because I shut down my brain and think with emotion. So being rational isn't an option at the time my feelings overrule everything. But I really am in love with her and I wouldn't leave her for anyone else... I tell her that I love her but I think that isn't enough sometimes so I show it and I still think that's not good enough.